About Me – A Few Honest Words
You may have come to this page expecting to find details about my background, including degrees, certifications, teachers, awards, and recognitions.
“… I have none of these to offer you. I don’t consider myself a teacher. That word carries a weight I do not deserve…”
And truth be told, I deeply dislike egocentric people — those who acquire knowledge only to later package and sell it, promising power, abilities, and grand results under the glitter of marketing.
“How to become the best energy master,” “how to move objects with your mind,” “how to amplify your strength”
All designed to feed the pocket and the ego…. This is not my path.
I do not wish to be part of social media clowns. I do not seek interviews. I do not want promotion or exposure for the sake of recognition. Even the name of my late teacher, Steve Gray, does not need to be spotlighted for others to learn from what I humbly share.
My beginning…
At first, I was also tempted by the idea of becoming known — until one day, everything changed…
Something lit up inside me — A quiet, gentle light, filled with sacred fear and love…. And it whispered:
“To become a vessel, one must be truly empty. To receive, you must be nothing, and expect nothing.”
So you ask: Who am I?
I am someone who wishes to remain anonymous in this world. Someone who continues the qigong practices taught to him by a beloved teacher — not to teach, but to live through them.
” This Energy — this Light — Finds You. You Do Not Find It.”
All you are asked is to follow the practices with sincerity, humility, and divine love. There, in the quiet, far from fame, far from titles, beyond the need to be seen — the real work happens, not in certificates or crowded seminars, not in YouTube and Social Media followers or flashy achievements.
I do not want fast-food students. But if someone crosses my path with a pure heart and wishes to learn something from me, I will share what little I know.
After that, the path is yours. It is a lonely road inward, and the treasures it holds are found only by those who dare to know themselves.
“… Eventually, the teacher becomes a student. And the student becomes the teacher….”
They merge — into this eternal, cosmic energy field, where we all came to grow, to face our fears and our flaws, and to walk toward the Light.
Misunderstanding “Spirituality”
Many people enter the path of Nei Gong, Mo Pai, Qi Gong, internal Tai Chi, or other energy practices in search of something deeper — something “spiritual.”
But what is this spirituality? And why has the term largely lost its meaning?
As an inner cultivator for over a decade, I can say with honesty that so-called “spiritual people” are often the most complicated. They carry a heavy burden of rules, diets, theories about higher and lower realms, behaviors, and stereotypes.
This is not freedom — it’s another form of binding identity. And that identity comes from the mind. A mind that twists, interferes, attempts to control, and interpret the unknown using limited tools.
If we could simply be, like a tree — no expectations, no interpretations — our energy would flow naturally, and our practice would deepen effortlessly.
The problem is, we’re not just plants. We have thoughts, feelings, actions, a physical body, and an energetic body. And the task is to balance these levels — not distort them through mental attachments.
The Trap of the Spiritual Ego
One of the greatest dangers in Nei Gong practice isn’t failing at a technique — it’s building on the idea of yourself.
When your practice becomes a way to enhance your image, to show the world what you’ve achieved — through photos, Facebook posts, articles, even seminars — then the path becomes dangerous.
Some want to be seen as “masters,” to “save” others, to transmit “energy” from afar, to prove they’ve reached a certain level. But who is doing all this?
Who’s seeking this recognition?
The truth is simple: the ego is an illusion — a system of memories, reactions, and expectations.
Every time we bring the past into a new experience, we no longer see clearly. We don’t meet others as they are, but through the lens of our history. This has devastating consequences not only for our relationships, but also for our energy work.
Undermining Embodied Experience
Nei Gong is not an idea. It’s an experience.
When we fill the practice with “color” — mental interpretation, spiritual romanticism, metaphysical certainties — it ceases to be effective.
Energy is a subtle phenomenon that requires clarity, stillness, and mental silence.
If there’s too much mind involved, shared experience among practitioners becomes impossible — it becomes personal fantasy.
Believing you’ve “arrived” somewhere, that you’re “aligned” or “transmitting light,” is usually a sign that you’re caught in a narrative made by your mind.
And if you gently tell someone they’ve become identified with their spiritual image, they often react defensively.
The spiritual ego is just as strong as the “worldly” ego — perhaps stronger, because it hides beneath a cloak of righteousness.
The Role of Humility and Silence
- The true practitioner does not show off.
- They don’t need to prove anything.
- Practice is secret — not because it’s forbidden, but because it’s deeply internal.
We live in an era where social media has turned everyone into an “expert.”
Every phrase, every photo, every technique becomes an opportunity for display.
But what internal practice truly needs is silence, observation, and ongoing self-inquiry.
Always ask: Does what I think I’ve understood lead me closer to truth — or deeper into illusion?
The True Search Has No End
There is nothing wrong with being dissatisfied with life — as long as it doesn’t become just another identity.
- The search begins with the question: Who am I?
- But it doesn’t end with an answer.
- It ends when the one asking the question disappears.
Nei Gong is simple.
It’s the art of becoming transparent to your own internal current.
- It doesn’t need big words or theatrics.
- It requires a constant release of ideas.
- Getting out of your own way — again and again.
- Letting life reveal itself without the interference of thought.
A Personal Message
I write these reflections as someone who made the same mistakes…
And who’s still correcting them?
I am not a teacher — I’m someone who has devoted his life to the quiet, humble art of Nei Gong.
If you recognize something of yourself in this article, maybe it’s time to create a little space.
- Stop “trying.”
- Stop “being someone.”
- Walk quietly.
- Remain unknown.
- And let the unknown shape you…
I wish you all health, and an everlasting inner journey — One that requires no external validation, no applause, no confirmation of who you are.
” That confirmation will come only from the Divine, From the Source of Light itself.
And I pray that this light walks with you throughout your life, And that you become ever more luminous.”
– Jim
Nei Gong Practitioner & Inner Guide